College.

Hello Beauties!

Boy, have I missed you. The stress levels in my life right now are off the charts, and I really needed this time to focus on me and just write. I started college this fall, and things have not gone well for me. Living at school has contributed to me developing mental health issues, worsening my anxiety, and developing depression. As for classes, I have been doing well in most (curse you, Microeconomics!), and have been loving the conservative business aspect of my school.

Unfortunately, the negatives have outweighed the positives, and I will not be returning to this university next semester. After talking with my physician, parents, friends, and Jarod, we have concluded that the best bet for me would be to commute to and from school. I will also be transferring colleges because my current school is too far from home to commute to. I will however, be graduating from my current university in three years, after completing a 3 + 1, doing three years at community college and one at the university.

After going through all of these issues, I have learned a few key things. The first thing is that there is absolutely no reason to be ashamed if you face mental health issues. I felt so pathetic having to go to the doctor because I was unable to rationalize my fears and keep my moods in check. I had noticed that I was moodier than ever, I napped constantly, and was afraid of everything, and no matter what I did, I could not control it and I was falling into a downward spiral. It took a lot for me to admit there was a problem, and I was very embarrassed. My mother, sister, and boyfriend actually noticed the issue first hand and set up an appointment to talk to my family doctor. She then put me on medication and told me I had to go to counseling.

This brings me to my second point, utilize free counseling at university!!! I was beyond irritated and embarrassed that I had to go to therapy, and I put off scheduling an appointment as long as I could. I finally went and was dreading it, when in reality, I am so grateful I went and I have another appointment this week! It is so nice to have someone to talk to, especially when you’re away from home. My counselor is so nice, and she is understanding of all of the things I struggle with, and as a matter of fact, she has faced some of these issues herself, so she can relate to them as well.

My last point is that in any issues, lean on God. I never was one to preach the Bible before I left for college. I’ve always been Christian, but being at school has strengthened my faith. I realized that I cannot make it on my own without Him, and since that realization, I have been trying to spread God’s love through my actions so that they may also be at peace, and have God to lean on. My current favorite verse that I want to leave with you all is found in Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall. Keep this verse in mind as you are filled with doubt, worry, or sadness, and give it all up to God because he will never let you break.

xoxo

Grace

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2017 Goals

Hello Beauties!

Happy New Year! Since today is January 1st, 2017, it is the perfect time to set goals and reinvent yourself. I set eight goals using my new favorite note taking app/website: Google Keep. I really like using Google Keep and Google Calendar because it easily accessible on my phone, iPad, and computer by just logging onto my Gmail account. There are also widgets that display both my schedule (for Calendar, which is color coded!) and my goals (for Keep).

  1. Wash my face twice a day. This seems simple enough, and it should be something that I have always done; however, washing my face at night is a task I typically forget. I shower when I wake up, which takes care of washing my face in the morning. When I have a busy evening and arrive home late, I often find myself forgetting to wash my face before bed, even when I’m wearing makeup.
  2. Drink 48 ounces of water a day. This goal also seems like a given, especially since 48 ounces isn’t even the suggested amount to drink daily. I have a hard time remembering to drink water and most of the time because my go to drink is iced tea. I think an easy way to drink more water is to find a tumbler or water bottle you really like, because from what I’ve learned, I’m more likely to drink water if I like what I’m drinking it out of. We have a Brita filter on our faucet at home and since I’m really picky about my water, I usually don’t refill my water bottle until I get home. I’m purchasing this Brita Water Bottle to hopefully motivate me and help with my water-drinking pickiness.
  3. Blog once a week. Blogging for me is very therapeutic, and regardless of what is going on in my life, writing about it almost always helps. I plan on scheduling time in for blogging because the only thing that holds me back from doing it is getting caught up in my hectic schedule.
  4. Read a daily devotion. This one is a big goal for me. I really want to have a devotion/ debrief time each day because having that time with God everyday is essential to good spiritual health. I have a hard time finding devotions that are easy to understand and relate to, which makes it hard to remember to read them daily. I would gladly accept any suggestions of good devotions and books!
  5. Better Jarod and I’s relationship. This is something that will always be a goal for us, and we will always have to work on. After two and a half years, we are obviously both happy and our relationship is filled with mutual love for each other. I think constantly working to make your relationship better and to make each other happier is just really important.
  6. Work out at least twice a week. Working out is a traditional “New Year’s Resolution” so obviously I had to add it to the list! I really got into weight lifting over the summer, but sort of faded out of going to the gym as much because I was having some health issues. My goal is really to get back into lifting weights and to become toner. To motivate me to work out, I plan on purchasing these Nike shoes. Not to set my goal too high, twice a week seems like a good place to start.
  7. Finish assignments early. This goal is really important because it is a really important habit to form, especially since I will be starting college soon. For a lot of my classes, you get the assignment several days before it is due, and I have a terrible habit of putting it off until the night before the due date. I also have online classes that I have fallen behind in, where I will struggle to catch up on.
  8. Be proud of the person I am. This goal is obviously the number one goal. I want to work on all aspects of my life to be proud of who I am as a person. I really want to work on my physical, mental, and spiritual health. I want to be happier with all aspects of life and be a kinder person to everyone around me.

Again, Happy New Year, Beauties! Take this time as 2017 begins to set some goals for yourself. These goals can be as small as washing your face to as big as traveling somewhere you’ve always wanted to go, or saving money. As the year changes, there is no better time to improve yourself. I always find that I need a big change in my life to motivate me to improve myself.

xoxo

Grace